Life goes on

We should have stayed together,
That was our destiny,
But it wasn't meant to be...

Lost,
And found,
And lost again...
I moved on,
But you are still stuck there
Maybe still waiting for me.

When will you understand,
Eternity is a void,
Full of grief
And despair,
Which slowly weakens our will to survive.

We get hurt,
And then heal.
We learn to smile inspite of our tears,
And life goes on...

We were meant to be together,
But it didn't work out.
Life still goes on!

Remembrance

I thought of you again,
remembering the times we spent together.
That smile,
that grin,
Musical like the stream,
that flows in the distant greens.

That twinkle in your eyes,
the mischievous wink,
that innocent look on your face,
when your mind was full of pranks
awaiting the unawares..

The remembrance lingers on,
of how I had tried to hold on to you.
Oh ! I had tried real hard,
But then who can hold sand in his hands...

Letting go was painful,
but it wasn't sad,
you were my swan song,
I don't feel remorse,
I still love you..

Charade

Behind the veils,
I conceal my wounds
and try to gather my thoughts.

The sheathe can break,
The veneer is very thin.
I'll be hurt again..

I am sore,
my soul is scorched
but you are so shallow..
Oh! why don't you care ??
You carry on your charade
happy in your makebelieve world,
unwittingly hurting me again
and again..

Till there is nothing more left.
Till I succumb to despair
And sink,
lost,
In the abyss of hopelessness...

Identity..

A sinner but a healer,
loser but still a winner,
coherent but confused thoughts,
stirred but inert,
atheist but a preacher,
a queen but still poor,
a beggar but still content,
black and white but still grey...
An enigma,
a question,
or my identity...

This Sinking Feeling !!!

Pain ,
sorrow ,
hopelessness,
Painting the river black.

Lunacy,
Apathy,
Bewilderment ,
At the end of the bottomless pit.

Anger,
Jealousy,
Frustration,
Dark as the colour green.

Faith,
Wishes,
Identity,
Lost in this melee of repentant grief.

Soaked,
but thirsty,
Still waiting for release.

Stuck in a quagmire,
Slowly being sucked
into the black hole of anonymity....

Maybe

You ask me
Why am I so melancholic ??
have you left any reason for me to be happy..

Like the rest you came to me,
made me smile,
gave a reason to cherish life.

I laughed
and bloomed
and believed that life is all sunshine and gaiety.

And then like the rest you also left..
no consoling words,
Just an unknown compelling reason..
reconfirming my faith,
that it was always I who has been wrong..

A heart,
broken once again.
Trust,
murdered again..
Apprehensions,
turned true again...

I'll still smile,
and laugh,
and live,
but there won't be anymore glitter in my eyes...

Maybe I won't be so naive next time.
Maybe I'll learn my lessons..
Its not your fault,
I have always known,
Life's lessons are learnt the hard way...

Dreams or Nightmares...

Dreams are supposed to be beautiful,
Full of hope and strength
Angels and golden wings.
Then why don't I see them ?
Why do I see graveyards
whenever I think of green valleys.
Why is my vision filled with wilted flowers,
when I think of stars.
Why has despair replaced hope ?
Why has felicity forsaken her place for morbidity ?
Who is to be blamed ?
Why could I do nothing ?
As my dreams turned into nightmares....

In the throes of agony...

I cannot cry,
I cannot writhe,
lest they all know my grief.
But yes,
yes I can do this much,
I can let this one tear escape unchecked.
My heart,
I know you want to be expressed,
but truth is not what the world wants to see...